I'm all in.

Ever since the summer before my junior year in high school the Lord has put Africa on my heart. I look in the eyes of the people in pictures and see a longing for love, a longing to know more, a longing to belong. These past two days have been Go Missions Conference here at A&M and I found the p.e.r.f.e.c.t. organization that I would want to go and serve with. African Inland Missions utilizes whatever skills you have and sends you with seasoned missionaries to the heart of Africa to build relationships and serve the communities. After earning the right to be heard by forming these relationships are we able to share the good news of Christ. wonderful.

There are 900 people groups in Africa that have never heard the name of Jesus. wrap your mind around that. nine hundred people groups.  These aren't people that don't believe because they choose not to or don't understand it. These people have never heard of Jesus. I can't even imagine this. My heart breaks for Africa.

The culture is centered on the women do the hard manual labor for the families. The children do the house work. The men are served. A widowed woman has no status in the society. To find work for them is nearly impossible much less a purpose in society. Orphans are considered dogs and useless. This is a broken society. There is so much need.

I know one day the Lord will open the door for me to mission in Africa, however I know that he has called me to a much different kind of mission right now. As crazy and weird and unfitting as it sounds, the Lord has called me to rush next fall. Yes. Brooke Allen is rushing Greek Life in the fall. This is 100% God's doing. He is calling me to love on the girls on campus who need it most. Now of course not all sorority girls are the "typical sorority girls," but those that are need love more than anything. Girls who hide behind pounds of make up, drinking, sex, status, popularity, etc. do so because they have no sense of self worth.

At first I really struggled with this idea. "I wouldn't fit in. I'm not like them. It so isn't me." man did I have myself on a pedestal. No. I am no better than anyone. much less girls who are different than me. Jesus came into the world where it was uncomfortable for him. He stood out and didn't exactly fit in. Why? Because 1. he was called by the Father to do so and 2. because he loved us. boom. We are called to model our lives after Jesus, humbling ourselves and loving all people and following God's plan.

I am training to be a YoungLife leader for heaven's sake! I cannot wait to love on high school girls in the area struggling with these same problems. My heart is in helping girls realize the Jesus is the only man who can complete your heart and that we are all beautiful just as we were created. So yea. Brooke Allen. A sorority girl. Honestly, I'm excited. Excited to be out of my element and to make new friends where I never would have before. To make memories and plant some seeds. The Lord is the only one that can change people, I'm just wanting to be his hands.

I will go where you call Lord. Greek Row to whatever YL high school to Camp Ozark to Africa. Whatever you have planned Lord I am all in.

"If Your presence goes I don't want to stay
If Your presence stays I don't want to go
If Your presence goes I don't want to stay
If Your presence stays I don't want to go
I need You" -Shane and Shane, "Without You"